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Hey Look! Don’t you see
How well I’m moving on? Oh —
You already have.

This one calls me bright
Smart
Witty
Intelligent.
That one says I’m efficient
A little worker bee.
Another calls me kind
Affectionate
Loving
Compassionate.

Their encouragement makes me soar.

But you say …
I’m dumb
Slack and lazy
Selfish and prideful.

Dozens of people are in my fan club
But yours is the voice I hear
That taps me on the shoulder and says
“You can’t do that. You’ll fail.”

And for some reason,
I choose to believe it.
And I am earthbound.

Should

I should be better by now.
I should be settled
Into my new normal,
A routine that no longer
Includes you.
I should have moved on
At least a little,
Taking steps toward healthy.
I should be beyond
Denial, anger, bargaining
And well on my way
To acceptance.

But in grief
There is no should.
Only is
Or isn’t
Can’t … for now.
There are no deadline or timelines.
No finish line.
One day, there will be
May, will, shall.
Acceptance.
Today, I simply take the next step
And move along as best I can.

Hot summer at the curb
The webbing of the mini lawn chair
Making my sweaty legs itch
A big tub of grape Kool-Aid
Ready to sell
Dixie cups
A giant ladle
And a fly swatter
To keep away those pesky, non-paying customers

We wave to a car that barely slows down
To read our sign
Confidently penned with
Magic marker
From our set of twenty-four vibrant colors
Puffy letters
Each decorated differently
To catch the eye
It really has the opposite effect
Since they are so difficult to read
The sedan drives by
Home
To ice-cold lemonade
And a window air conditioner

We dismiss it
And squint up the street
Waiting hopefully for the next one
Or someone on a bicycle
Or a thirsty jogger
Who may happen to have ten cents handy

But very few
Seem to have time
Or money or desire
For our kool-aid
So we drink the warm, sugary solution
And count and recount our coins
As the afternoon drags on
We talk about our latest crush
Wearing makeup one day
Going swimming
Training bras and Barbie dolls
And all the in-between-age stuff of girls

All the while
Grinning wide
With purple lips

Contents:

While cleaning out my purse
For the first time in months
I find …

A post-it note with a phone number
And a first name
That goes with a face I no longer remember

A paperclip
Good for holding things together
Unless it floats alone

One last cracker
Still in celo wrap
From a pack I opened
While waiting for
Another delayed lunch date

Perfume
A gift for my birthday
(But we won’t discuss my age)
Several years ago
Back when gift-giving was still done

Two ticket stubs
From the last movie we saw together
And discussed until wee hours of morning
We disagreed on the ending
Whether it was right for the characters
How they had grown
And where they were in their lives
Should they have stayed together?
I said no
You said yes
And there was really no in-between

There rarely is
Really
For two who have grown so close.
How do you ungraft a tree
Without cutting it down?

In a time when our faith is constantly questioned, we can feel alone. We can wonder why we believe what we believe. We can wonder if we even should.

The early Hebrew Christians faced the same battle and worse, including persecution from by the Romans and rejections by Jews. They were still working out their belief and in need of some serious encouragement. The writer of the Book of Hebrews came to their rescue. For nine and a half chapters, the author lays out the theology for them, reminds them why Christ is better than the law, and tells them the importance of faith.

Then in the middle of Chapter 10 is this little nugget: vv. 23-25 (MSG) “Let’s keep a firm grip on the promises that keep us going. He always keeps His word. Let’s see how inventive we can be in encouraging love and helping out, not avoiding worshiping together as some do, but spurring each other on, especially as we see the big Day approaching.”

Growing up, I always heard these verses as the command to be at church every time the doors were open. Sunday morning, Sunday night, Wednesday night, vespers, revival meetings … And while that’s all well and good, I really think these verses mean much more than that.

Sure, we can be at church when we’re supposed to be. We can punch in — sing the songs, give the offering, hear the sermon, benediction, amen — punch out. Head home and turn on the football game. We may come away encouraged or convicted, or both, and that is fine. But I don’t think that is the complete experience. If that’s all we do, I would say we have missed the point of congregation. We might as well stay home and watch a service on tv or the internet. We are missing the best thing about church: the love.

In John 13:34-35, Jesus said, “So I am giving you a new commandment: love each other. Your love for each other will prove to the world that you are my disciples.” I don’t think we can share or experience this kind of world-changing love if we arrive at our seat just as the music begins, then dash out after the last amen. Love is relationship. And relationship needs time and attention.

If you think that socializing outside of church is frivolous, you’re not alone. Many of us have been taught that any activity must include a Bible study in order to be worthwhile. I no longer think that is true. After all, if we do as Paul told the Corinthians and “do all to the glory of God” (including eating and drinking!), then everything we do is worthwhile.

Rick Warren takes this idea further. In his book The Purpose Driven Life, he says that Father God created us for five equally important purposes: worship, outreach, discipleship, ministry, and fellowship. In Chapter 17, he declares:

You are called to belong, not just believe.

Even in the perfect, sinless environment of Eden, God said, “It is not good for man to be alone.” We are created for community, fashioned for fellowship and formed for a family, and none of us can fulfill God’s purposes by ourselves.

The Bible knows nothing of solitary saints or spiritual hermits isolated from other believers and deprived of fellowship. The Bible says we are put together, joined together, built together, members together, heirs together, fitted together, and held together …

Fellowship reminds us that we are not alone. I Peter 5:8-9 tells us, “Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world.” A lion doesn’t charge into a herd of gazelles. It stalks them from the edges, looking for the weak one, the sick one, the loner — the easy one to pick off. So it is with the Enemy. But he does one more in that he purposely makes us think we are alone. He tells us to keep to ourselves, that needing others is a sign of weakness, that we can do just fine without others.

Being the head of Fellowship in a purpose-driven church, I was able to see how the five purpose areas played off of and blended into each other.

Fellowship can spark worship and ministry. A church retreat is a great place of ministry, often because people have the opportunity to hang out and even play together before settling in to some deep worship time. I may (barely) survive a high ropes course with a woman I just met, only to wind up praying with her later and sharing an encouraging word. And she is more willing to receive that word from me because we have built some trust.

Fellowship can spark outreach and discipleship. I know several people who today would not come to church with me, but will gladly come to my home for a meal and nice conversation. I can show them the love of Jesus without opening a Bible or attempting to preach to them.

Fellowship can allow us to be real in a way that we may not be even in the welcoming and shame-free environment of this community group. I may be more candid with you while shopping. You men might let your guard down while fishing. No pressure. Just fun. And relationship grows. So that when a trying time comes or help is needed, we have someone we trust that we can go to for prayer or wise counsel or encouragement.

It’s important for us to love each other. We are the family we have chosen, and this family is eternal. Might as well get to know one another and love each other well. That kind of love can change the world.

Waiting

I’m waiting
For things to slow down
For a chance to catch up
Time to breathe.
I miss You,
And I keep missing You.
I can spend a whole day
In Your presence
Feel Your presence
Feel Your peace wash over me
Your joy pour into me
Your love refresh me . . .
Then
Back to the daily routine
With all its strain
Pressure
And mind-numbing rush.

Where do I find the time
To lounge with the Lord
Sit at His feet
Or even read one verse?
Mornings slip away.
Lunch is busy, too.
Evenings are family time.
Then sleep takes over.
In the night
You catch me when I’m still.
You whisper to me
Words of blessing,
Visions of hope.
You invite me
To lounge with You
Sit at Your feet
Read some verses whenever I can.

You’re waiting
For me to slow down
So we can catch up
And I can breathe in
The sweet fragrance of You.

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